Push it
What if we push it
Will it topple
Will it sway
Will we lean into the meaning
Can we expose the reality
Push it
What if I push it
Will you run
Will you go away
Will you lean into my longing
Will it expose our needing
Push it
What if you push it
Will you fall into the listening
Will you learn on my back
Will I let you fall
Will I let you be imperfect
1969
Rocket to the moon
Iris full of stars
Gathering sparkly pixie dust
Fueling up on Mars
Planet orange as sugary Tang
Seat from which to watch big bang
Aerodynamic time of thrust
Shiny silver projectile lust
Lovely, Lovely Darkness
Should darkness always be my friend
Intensity dodging looming daybreak
Night is for doing, feeling, reeling
Sight and sound in crisp harmony
Morning is for longing
Rise before the dawn
Breathe in perfumed melody
Hoping for a message
There always is a message
Dancing on a message
To keep the dream from waking
Promise of a message
Never calling me back
To the ache that is unfathomable
The possibility of the new
Entrances like a jailbreak
Space
Hold space for me as bodies wither
I will remind you of nimble, bronze agility
Of pounding need for sensory
Hold space for me, so I may be imperfect
You, in turn, will have wings of gratitude to lift you
Hold space for me as I learn to live this time
This time that was unplanned
This time we haven’t much of
And I will hold space for you
Life Ache
Bruised shin hard fast work good pain ache
Puncture wound humiliation stabbing nausea hurt ache
Drowning gasping fear escape help me ache
Hangover sweet light headed swirling twirling love ache
Manboy
Manboy
Sweet manboy
Born of diamond earth
What is your joy
Honest, earnest manboy
Hard and durable
Unalterable, unbreakable
Sharp and proper
You have heeded
Mama’s plea
Taking extreme care
Wrenching always high to see
You are essence
Raw, unmined ore
Tender, targeted earth boy
Pure, true core
Fix It
Fix my brain
No, it isn’t broken
Fix my brain
Know it isn’t broken
The world around is broken
Fix it please, now
Verify Me
As I stand before you aching
Tell me that you see me
That I penetrate profoundly
As I bow my head seeking gratitude
Tell me I expand you
Transform you essentially
As I grieve a life-stage spent
Tell me you are witness
To timeless beauty
As I stand before you yearning
Tell me something I once knew
Tell me I will become
Last to Leave the Supper Club
Fish fry Friday
Highball at the bar
Iceberg salad
Choice of potato
Condiment Lazy Susan
Last to leave the supper club
Sucking on a yellow butter mint
Addict
Shoot sweet high
Reaching neuron in the brain
Dizzy stumbling bumbling
Excessively attained
Dip and puff and sip and huff
To fantasize a kiss
Oily paint by number
Child drug modest risk